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This past weekend, God confirmed the need for me to reconcile with people from my past, whether they hurt me, I hurt them, or no one hurt anyone but there was bitterness in my heart regardless. I took my rest day to work out my heart…and good Lord was it a tough one. It took about 3 hours before bed to write out emails to about four girls who I have harbored hurt and bitterness over circumstances and events in the past. I was at a loss for words for most of it. And I found myself still trying to hold back what needed to be done. I apologized and asked for forgiveness whether I felt I did any wrong doing or not…it forced me to rid myself of ANY pride and just be completely humbled for the sake of living a life empty of bitterness and cynicism.
I’ve never felt so humbled in my life. It’s very challenging to ask for forgiveness when you’ve spent the past couple months waiting for an apology. It was worth it.
I went to bed last night feeling such a BEAUTIFUL peace knowing that I had finally done what needed to be done. Yesterday I learned that sometimes you need to be the one to absorb the pain for the greater good. And thank God, the pain was momentary, but this peace is for the rest of my life.
If you feel led to do some repair in your own life, please make sure your heart is in a place where you’re not doing it for a mutual loving reaction. I woke up this morning to this as a response to one of the emails: “You don’t need to ask me for anything we all have our moments…” Remember that this is all about doing what YOU need to do, not expected their hearts/lives to be in line with that or even expecting someone to say they forgive you and apologize in return.
I feel so encouraged by all of you who have shown me the beauty in vulnerability…thank you for always allowing me to share my heart with you. It’s like I’m having a coffee date with thousands of dear friends…who could ask for more?
Here is my dayEIGHT and your tips for today…LIVE FREE!!!!!
Nutrition: Banana Bread Shake
2 scoops whey protein
1/2 cup Quaker oatmeal (cook with boiling water)
3/4 cup Kellogg’s Bran Flakes
1 bottle of water
Sugar, brown sugar or artificial sweetener to taste.
Blend and enjoy! Yummy!!!